am not that happy

i am not that happy with things that has been going on in life currently.
it is not that i am not happy to works here but i don't really feel like i belong here.
i am not sure why.
and last night.
i was ok and in the right mood.
suddenly mama's mood change a little bit and i was not really sure what happen but i am not happy with the changes.
and last night when i was on the phone with him.
he sounds as if he is not in the right mood.
he sounds as if he was not talking to me.
as if i was only his friends.
but I AM NOT ok??