Jingle all the way~

well.well.well.


pada hari sabtu yang lalu (eh skema batak kenapa?)


ok. hari sabtu hari yang paling best dan penat...penat woh wa cakap lu....as usual..bangun pagipagi...layan dulu Mr.Bean...then layan KimPossible and then~ 


siapsiap sedia....pegi Penang~ yeay!!!!


niat dihati minggu lepas nak merawat luka yang terpendam.as usual, cara saya rawat luka adalah dengan membasmi kuman dalam purse..


so we went to Gurney....sadly, kat gurney hanya beli cornetto mc'flurry sache...and thanks to ShaakirohMurad sebab belanja luncheon di Nandos. my fav place bila detim.....demn terimbau memori bahagia!

sharing is caring.satubowlsoup share bertiga.

slurpppslurpp

budakgemuktengahlapar.

then decide nak berpoyapoya di Queensbay Mall...Ya Rabbi~ sesak amat QB dihari JinglebellJinglebell tu.....memang sesak lah!!then, satu hal duk mencaricari parking....lastlast dapat jugak parking yang decent dan tak salah disisi undang undang keamanan dunia...


jengjengjeng.bermula dengan 1st floor. terus menerus ke Forever21 tapi singgahsahur eh singgah jap kat Esprit.......tapi kami cepatcepat nak g Forever21 sebab kesayangans aim nak carik seluar+baju tido.haa....then tibatiba, i yang tade aim nih, ternampak satu knitted baju in grey...so, sementelah tengan gila baju kaler grey..i pon grabbbbbbbbbbbbb. 


rm$$.$$ sache. murah la jugak.and reasonable la jugak... dalam Esprit nyarisnyaris beli handbag..tapi bila ditiliktilik, beg tu macam beg polis...sebab sangat petak...mwahahahahaha...


then keluar dari Forever21...jalanjalan diMNG....kesayangan beli knitted shirt jugak...


then thennnnnnnnnnnnnnn. masuk pulak dalam ALDO sebab ada kesayangan berkenan dengan kasut kat situ...tengahtengah dia tunggu kasut dia tuh...duk membelekbelek handbag...sebab masa dekat Gurney dah perasan handbag yellow kat situ.tapi masa tuh tak terfikir nak belek price nye...maklumla, ALDO macam agak expensive...mwahahahaha.


tapi in the end, kesayangan tengok harga...dalam RM$$$.$$...dia kata murah...duadua kesayangan cakap murah...then nampak the same pattern, but off white, so, pick it up and take a look at the price....


TADAAAAAAAAAAA!....


para kesayangan duk mensaiko diri ini...dan akibat dari tersaiko dan otak berfikir yang saya hanya sopim handbag once a year...so i pun grabbbbbbb~

this is the bag.mwahahaha.

muka riang diDROP oleh kesayangans.

ini budakgemok hepi dapat beg baru

and, beg ketas dia gedabak siot. abes i asek langgarlanggar people all around me..

then, later that night. balik rumah mandimanda...berchinta..then tidor.migrain...sebab skipped breakfast...or maybe sebab tengok $$$ terbang~

so, this is it. the closing items for the year 2010..

next year, i mean Jan2011...i am aiming for new shoes..i need new shoes *dandan perlu kasut baru kan uolls*

i hate that feeling,




when you feel hungry but you don't want any food you see, 




and you can't figure out what food you want, 




and you don't think it even exists,




but then you realize that what you want is 






to see the person you're missing.

It's hard enough to say good-bye,
And to know that time will crawl and NOT quickly fly.

Falling asleep every night without you here,
With nothing to comfort me and dry my tears.

Gripping my pillow and longing for your touch,
And crying to your picture, "I miss you so much."

Bad dreams they wake me in the middle of the night,
And I turn to lay my head, on your chest full of might.

Only to find that you still aren't yet home, 
My Sailor's not here to hold me, and keep me safe and warm.

But your pillow still smells of your sweet loving scent, 
And I've held it closely since the day that you went. 

The phone rings and I pray your voice I hear,
My heart skips a beat, it almost feels like you're near.

I cherish every phone call as if it were our last,
Reminiscing the good times and longing for the past.

The past when you were home with me, and the time we spent together,
Dreaming of your warmth and love and knowing we'll last forever. 

Remembering the romantic times and yearning for your kiss,
But holding you so close at night, is what I most miss. 

Living life with half my heart, you see is my biggest fear,
For you have the other half, so please hold it close and dear. 

So don't try to be brave if rough times come ahead,
For if I ever lose you there'd be no life for me to live.

For you have my heart and forever always will, 
There's an emptiness inside me that only you can fill. 

So don't keep me waiting for this seems like and eternity,
Please come home safe my sailor and together again we'll be






written by: ellie 
written for: militarysos.com-forum.

hope.hopeless

belajar sesuatu untuk hari ini.malam ini.saat ini.

jangan terlalu berharap.

kalau tak dapat.

memang sakit.

tapi.

saya tetap akan tunggu.

walau saya sangat rindu.

fell in love again

part of our collection.

this is not mine but i wish i had these.

encik chentahati.mau bilik macam nih!

since last weekend.i spent the whole two days with my comics.indulge myself with lots of comics.and i fall in love again with these books.i read lots of books back in IIUM. and the amount of books i read decreased ever since i worked.lame.i know.

and now, i really in love with books.can't wait to get me new books.i read any kind of books.

and, i have this one aim.i want my future kids to be in love with books.not just LIKE to read them but fell in LOVE with the books. why?okay.letme tell ya, when you are deeply in love with your books, you tend to read them over and over again and you tend to take care of them...seriously, i still have a collection of books that my mom bought when i was 6 or 7 years old. owh, didn't have the pictures here. tehehe.trust me, i am not creating stories.

and...............my mom have her personal collection of magazine.her collection of Wanita was since the year 1986 i guess. hows that??

so, anyone care to share with me any good books??????

p/s: i miss my literature's class!!!

apa nak jadi?

barubaru nih, saya dapat tau dari seorang rakankesayangan, ada seorang pelajar dizaman moden nih.membangangkan seorang insan bergelar pendidik.

dan tadi. saya ternampak seorang pelajar yang sibuk berdebat dengan seorang pendidik berkaitan dengan video seorang lelaki yang mengakui diri gay.

dalam komenkomen tu, saya ternampak

 same2 kite cermin diri masing2....
*backing bkn main, semacam jgk ke


wajar ke?dalam nada bergurau sekalipun, berkata demikian pada pensyarah awak?siapa awak?x ade rasa hormat ke?

dumped

have you ever been in this situation?

it hurts.a lot.

bercerita pada dia.apa yang berlaku barubaru ini.selepas selesai bercerita.satu mesej tak dibalas.esoknya, saya hantar lagi satu mesej.dengan niat, mahu mengadu dan mendapat nasihat.


saya fikir, dia boleh membantu.tapi saya silap.saya tak seharusnya terlalu berharap.dan kini, saya terluka.makin lama makin hati saya terhiris.


dia sepatutnya boleh memberi saya nasihat.dia kenal semua.malangnya, saat saya perlu bantuan dia.dia menyepi.


sampai hati.teruskan buat saya macam ni.teruskan lukakan hati saya.teruskan melayan saya seperti ini.


saya sedar,saya tak punya hati yang suci.saya tak punya gaji beribu ribu.saya tak punya akal yang bijak.tapi saya punya perasaan.bila susah.bila perlu bantuan.pandai mencari.bila senang,terus lupa.


saya jadi mangsa tiap perbuatan kamu.kamu tak tahu apa saya alami.setiap kata nak disampaikan pada kamu dipendam.tempiasnya saya.saya jadi tempat untuk dilepaskan geram marah.


tak mengapa.saya tetap sayang kamu.cuma berhenti buat saya macam sampah!

unconditionally and irrevocably in love with

my sailor.

si comot.si hitam.si kacak.si chentahati.si sailor.

saya rindu si chentahati saya.

ada benda nak diceritakan

ada kisah nak diadukan

ada rindu nak dilepaskan.

jingle bell jingle bell

okeh okeh.

it is not that i celebrate christmas.

just happened to be that my man will be back during christmas.

so, i guess it is the best present ever..

i would love to have this apron!!!

please please.

hadiahkan sempena my birthday!

ahahaha tak malu mintak hadiah.

tiktoktiktok

makin dihitung

makin dikira

makin dicongak

hati makin rasa sayang

jiwa makin rasa rindu

tak keruan rasanya

tak sabar menanti

tehehehehe.

cepat lah.rindu.

lapanbelas

semalam dah dapat senarai subjek semester hadapan.

entah kenapa hati rasa tak seronok.

memang la hanya tiga preparations untuk tiga kelas sahaja.

dan, selamat tinggal anakanak part4.

saya bakal bertemu anakanak part1.part2 dan part5.

seronok.sedih.

saya rasa kurang selesa bila dapat hanya 18jam untuk seminggu.

mungkin sebab selalunya banyak.

entah.

patotnya gembira.tapi saya rasa macam, bila sedikit, bos kurang percaya dengan saya.

herm..

suka fikir lebih.

terima je lah!

cominghome

tehehehehehehehehe *senyum*

hati bungabunga chinta.

bak kata si Ana Raffali.hujan bunga diKuala Lumpur tapi dalam entri ni, hujan bunga dihati saya.

nak tau kenapa?

saya tengah hitung detik waktu saatnya 27dis2010.

kenapa?

okeh.

my very best man nak sign off dah.

yeay!

walaupun tak la 28dis2010 bukak mata pagipagimorning dia ada kat sebelah.

tapi tetap gumbirasenanghati.

nanti dia kata nak bawak mummy and ayah dia pegi langkawi.

dia mintak saya fetch and hantarkan ke jeti.

eh

eh

eh

maknanya!the first moment saya jumpa mummy and ayah dia la nanti?

mwahahahaha

gembira.

mintakmintak jadi la kan.

sampai bila nak kenal nama tapi tak jumpa depandepan.

tak rawkstar la!

bitidabeliu.gambo atas tuh bukan gambo best man saya.

itu hasil ehsan encik google image

secret

rahsia.

bila mulamula berchinta.dia tanya,bole terima dia?dia kata dia budak jahat.sejahat yang saya boleh terfikir lah.tapi dia kata sekarang dah berubah.dah tak involved.jadi, saya cakap, kalau dah berubah.saya tak kesah.saya percaya yang setiap orang harus diberi pilihan kedua.dan bermula saat tu, saya dah boleh terima dia dan dia tak lagi tanya soalan seperti tu. lega.

semalam, masingmasing bercerita.dia cerita kisah silam kisah hitam dia dizaman jahiliyyah dia.dan saya tak terkejut.saya tenang.saya dengar dan cuba memahami kisah dia.dan hanya satu saja saya pinta pada dia. saya pinta tiada cerita tentang bekasbekas kekasihnya. hehehe.jeles.

semalam juga, saya fikir, dah sampai masa saya berterus terang tentang kisah silam saya.kisah dimana saya hampir.......................okeh biar dia saja tau.Alhamdulillah.dia cakap, dia kenal saya.saya boleh memilih baik atau buruk.saya masih ingat pada Tuhan.Syukur.Saya tau dia tak seperti orang yang sebelum ini.tiga tahun saya dengan orang tu.dan orang tu hanya mahu rosakkan saya.bukan ubah saya jadi gadis yang baik.dia tak hormat saya sebagai seorang wanita.

saya rasa.bila masingmasing dah boleh terima kelebihan dan keburukan.senang.cuma saya takut, andai diungkit kisahkisah ini.biar kami tau, kami ada kisah yang boleh dijadikan pengalaman dalam hidup.menjadi petunjuk.menjadi pengubat agar lebih tabah hadapi dugaan.

dear readers,

doakan saya dan dia panjang jodoh.

busy as a bee

okayyyyyy

this is a very homely type of entry....well, you know, since i was in my holiday week...well, i took one week of the office..i've been busy....

busy of doing what?

i'll tell ya later readers!

But true love stands the test of time

(Assoc Prof.Dr Haja Mohideen Mohd Ali, 2010)

Lecturer, IIUM.

saya rasa.

macam agak renggang.

hubungan dengan beberapa kesayangans.

gosh!

did i.

did i just said err i mean wrote something

that is kinda harsh?

err sorry!

ye.

saya memang pegi keja.

tiaptiap hari.

kadangkadang tujuh hari seminggu

semata-mata nak belanja orang lain.

saya rasa.

perasaan itu makin hilang.

surut.

sedikit demi sediki.

saya takut.

andai ia terus hilang.

awak...tolong jangan buat saya macam ni.saya perlu buktikan sesuatu pada mama dan abah.

jangan biar saya terhimpit.

saya perlu jaga perasaan mama abah

saya perlu jaga perasaan awak.

perasaan saya?

diabaikan?

diletak ke tepi?

atau...

dicampak jauh jauh?

ditanam dalam dalam?

c.o.l.o.r.s itu w.a.r.n.a

life is beautiful.

life is colorful

cherish every moment you have.

seize every minutes you lived in this world.

the art of waiting

am waiting here

to see your face

am waiting here

to see your smile

am waiting here

to hold your hand

am waiting here

to touch your fingers

am waiting here

for your hugs

am waiting here

for your kiss

am waiting here

for miracles to happen

am waiting here

for every good news

am waiting here

for-ever.

....

saya rasa sunyi.

walaupun saya pergi kenduri.

saya rasa sunyi

walaupun online 24jam

27 of DECEMBER 2010.

InsyaAllah the love of my life will be signing off from
M.T Nautica Muar

I am so happy.

As you all knew, I didn't have the chance to bid him goodbye.

and of course i am looking forward to welcome him back. well tho he'll be to batu pahat first cuz he is missing mummy and ayah soooooo much.

then, of course spent some time with his cousins and friends

then only. me!

*sigh*

nevertheless, sayang plis come home cepat. i missed u.

seafarer

found from a blog.

a seafarer's girl blog.

Kate Walsh “Seafarer (Acoustic Version)”

I tasted salt air
When I saw the seafarer
He came from nowhere
I tried hard not to stare
And into the night air
He laid my heart bare

p/s: where can i download this song?

sampai hati

bulan lepas. saya betulbetul sesak. berkalikali saya mintak tolong awak. awak diam.

semalam, sekali je awak mintak tolong.terus saya tolong.

dan tadi, saya mintak satu benda ja.

terus awak cakap, tak mau tolong.

malah awak mintak saya berahsia demi kepentingan awak

awak tak nak awak kena marah.

tapi awak relakan saya kena marah.

awak tawu?

dah berapa kali saya kena marah sebab awak?

dah berapa kali telinga saya kena tahan pedih sebab awak?