i am not blaming him.


i am not blaming anyone else..


i just blame myself.


why did i put so much hope on this?


why?


and now, i don't feel happy.


i wanna cry.


i wanna tell someone.


i can't tell him what i felt.

26th birthday.

yeay.


i did it.


well, it is not me who baked all the cupcakes but somehow, i am the one who planned for the surprise..i manage to get chan and nyssa to baked the cupcakes and decorate it the way i want and they kindly delivered it to him...

so here it is...

luckily he loves it.

and 

his cousin loves it too.

sebok lah ko jo.

macam mana aku nak paham
kalau kamu masih diam

macam mana aku nak sedar
kalau kamu diam membisu

macam mana aku nak menilai
kalau kamu masih tak mahu bercerita.

anchor-pendant-necklace

dear readers.


(ada readers ke???)


ada tak orang yang sudi nak hadiahkan carikan anchor pendant-necklace for me??


am looking for it.tapi tak jumpa.duludulu penah terjumpa kat Forever21.tapi entah kenapa tak beli.sekarang menyesal.terhegehhegeh mencari.

this one is gorgeous!

kalau berjanji.

kenapa tak tepati?

n a j a

damdamdum bunyik mercun..

weh weh!

salah lagu..tahun nih rasa meriah dengan CNY sebab, teringat zamanzaman saya takut dengan naga yang menziarah rumah jiranjiran chinese saya..duludulu eksaited jugak nak tengok naga..tapi bila naga sampai umah ah tong (jiran depan umah) kompom la saya masuk bilik depan.intai naga melalui tirai kamar...kira alaala lagu exist tuh.mengintai dari tirai kamar..walawey sumpah degup jantung saya sama tempo dengan bunyik gendang tuh...

owh kenapa dapat nostalgia macam tu?sebabnya, budakkecik kat rumah nih sangat eksaited pagi tadi nak tengok naja (naga) katanya..sampai tengah hari dia tunggu tapi naja tuh tak sampaisampai lagi...budakkecik nih marahmarah abah saya and cakap abah saya penipu sebab dari pagi sampai tengahhari dia tunggu naja tak sampaisampai..

elok ja naja sampai kat deretan rumah jiranjiran and bunyik gendang makin kuat.terus dia lari masuk bilik mama.duduk atas katil diamdiam.."adik thatut (takut)" COMELLLLLLLLLLLLLll!! kitorang terus gelakgelak evil kat dia..walhal, kak dyja dia pun sama takut gak doludolu..shhhhh jangan cerita kat dorang..kang saya pulak kena gelak evil..

owh setakat tuh aje apdet hari raya saya..saya ada lima orang kanakkanak ribena yang perlu dijaga..

babai.

tongtongceng tongtongceng.